It has been a little over two years since losing my beloved Mom.
Never in my life would I have expected the roller coaster ride I am on.
They say "Time Heals Everything" well it really doesn't!!!
It just makes time harder and longer without her
She was My Best Friend
What I wasn't prepared for was the entire change of events and people in my life.
Those who I had been there .. time after time... through their life events..
Friends? I always showed up for ...even for their stupidest reasons....
Where were they? Why aren't they here....???
Some have been with me since school days and others over 20 years.....
Why ... when I never asked anything ever of them...
Why.... in my darkest hour....am I alone....
I had 2 phone calls in the first 3 months...my friend so drunk barely understandable.
I thought wow calling to checking on me... blitzed but checking ...
Nope just wanted to cry about her life and break up and how hard it was...
although cheating was involved on both sides...how hard it was on her...
WTF
and doesn't understand "our" distance.....
then the other "best friend" from school days...
can't even begin this one..many, many times there for her....
so shocked but what I read and discovered...
can't even share it
These 2 women Know who they are ....
I deserve better friends than this...
I deserved a friend like I had been to them...
I have received many friendship call and compassion from my friends in the blog world. People who I have not met in person but who have continued to be there for me. Priceless people I would not trade for the world. You let me know you are here and I appreciate that so much.
I have friends I have reacquainted with and so thankful for. School friends a high school reunion brought back together my coffee club girls... love them :-)
Friends that have been out of contact with but a party on the river has brought back into my circle again...so thankful... thankful for my blessings I have received in my darkest hours....
It's not easy forging new territory without my rock, my stability, my friend my Mom.
So, hard to watch pops get on with his life with his new lady...but happy he isn't alone.
Hard to watch it from my window ...
where I watched my Momma
Live and Be Happy....
Hard to walk her footsteps....
when you lose your mom... you lose more than you could have ever expected!
you find out who your friends are....
most importantly ...
who they aren't....
I have said it before and I will say it again
IF you knew me before....
You don't know me now...
Standing UP
Speadking out
Not taking Shit Anymore
OH and specially want to say
Thank You to those I call my friends
I do really appreciate you all
xoxo dar
Never in my life would I have expected the roller coaster ride I am on.
They say "Time Heals Everything" well it really doesn't!!!
It just makes time harder and longer without her
She was My Best Friend
Those who I had been there .. time after time... through their life events..
Friends? I always showed up for ...even for their stupidest reasons....
Where were they? Why aren't they here....???
Some have been with me since school days and others over 20 years.....
Why ... when I never asked anything ever of them...
Why.... in my darkest hour....am I alone....
I had 2 phone calls in the first 3 months...my friend so drunk barely understandable.
I thought wow calling to checking on me... blitzed but checking ...
Nope just wanted to cry about her life and break up and how hard it was...
although cheating was involved on both sides...how hard it was on her...
WTF
and doesn't understand "our" distance.....
then the other "best friend" from school days...
can't even begin this one..many, many times there for her....
so shocked but what I read and discovered...
can't even share it
These 2 women Know who they are ....
I deserve better friends than this...
I deserved a friend like I had been to them...
I have received many friendship call and compassion from my friends in the blog world. People who I have not met in person but who have continued to be there for me. Priceless people I would not trade for the world. You let me know you are here and I appreciate that so much.
I have friends I have reacquainted with and so thankful for. School friends a high school reunion brought back together my coffee club girls... love them :-)
Friends that have been out of contact with but a party on the river has brought back into my circle again...so thankful... thankful for my blessings I have received in my darkest hours....
It's not easy forging new territory without my rock, my stability, my friend my Mom.
So, hard to watch pops get on with his life with his new lady...but happy he isn't alone.
Hard to watch it from my window ...
where I watched my Momma
Live and Be Happy....
Hard to walk her footsteps....
when you lose your mom... you lose more than you could have ever expected!
you find out who your friends are....
most importantly ...
who they aren't....
I have said it before and I will say it again
IF you knew me before....
You don't know me now...
Standing UP
Speadking out
Not taking Shit Anymore
OH and specially want to say
Thank You to those I call my friends
I do really appreciate you all
xoxo dar
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"The will of God will never take you
where the Grace of God will not protect you"
